I'm not certain how to. I've always derided the idea of making a blog-- I'd seen it as inherently an exercise in self-absorption, the internet's take on speaking just to hear oneself speak. More importantly, however, I resisted the idea because I have a nasty tendency not to finish what I've begun.
So tumbling headlong into the brushwood of personal blogging, as it were, seems an unwise decision. No good will come of this.
My biggest fear, I think, is that this project will degenerate into a sort of mindless e-diary. I'm not certain at all whether I have anything to offer to whomever stumbles upon this blog-- a reason to stay. The (as of yet) mundane details of my life aren't exactly compelling reading material. Every worthwhile site (or any piece of literature, for that matter) must have a hook, no? I don't want mine to be what I had for breakfast this morning. (Ham & egg muffin, if you must know.)
Always the ambition, but never the follow-through-- a pattern that's plagued me repeatedly thus far. Several times over the past week I've considered trying to teach myself how to use various photo-editing, video-editing and music sequencing programs, how to draw... artfully (for lack of a better adverb! Perhaps I should be teaching myself vocabulary instead), and otherwise contemplating the start of some meaningful recreational project. Nothing has ever come of it.
Which brings me back to this blog, and why I've finally decided to create it against my better judgment. Nothing ever gets done sitting around thinking of things to do, no matter how much it makes me feel better for making plans so out of focus that they can't even be sharpened by the strongest pair of rose-coloured glasses. Perhaps a dose of spontaneity is what's needed here. (Ideally accompanied by a shot or two of self-discipline.)
For now, this blog will serve as a way to track my progress to the sacred land of Productivity, one meandering step at a time. (Why do this publicly, and not in a private journal? Because somehow, it really is more enjoyable this way. I've not yet been able to figure out why.) From time to time it will also serve as a vehicle to inform whomever is interested in those mundane details of my life on which I remarked previously. I guess there's no taking this back now that I've written all of this.
Whether I like it or not, the blog has begun. Let's hope I don't regret this tomorrow morning.
